I can't catch a break lately. Anxiety is very high. I'm afraid of going to my Psychiatrist tomorrow, because I feel all within one week, my moods are all over the place, so it's hard for me to generally summarize how I've been feeling. I am tired of my medication always having to be looked at and adjusted. Some of the meds might be helping a little It's hard to know if Lamictal is doing anything. I love it's appeal that it gives me no side effects and want to think it's doing something, but I'm on the max dose, and I often feel like I'm just taking candy. I wonder what stability looks like.. It feels like so long, that I just kind of forgot. I don't know how I'm 'supposed' to feel.

I'm just kind of all over the place lately. It's hard to stop worrying about random things. I break down over the little things and feel my chest hurting because of anxiety. I just need to get a grip on things, but don't know where to begin.

Sorry, just had to vent.