Thanks everyone. I am feeling a little more at ease. It's true that real friends will understand, while I know I always want to take responsibility for my own actions. I don't usually say hurtful things while manic....not to say I haven't lashed out at people before from time to time at the people closest to me when I'm overly sensitive....
However, usually, I'm more the type of person who I view as over-the-top, annoying, and sometimes inadvertently push people into things they normally wouldn't do since I take a lot of risks and do reckless things when I'm manic. It puts me at risk and also people close to me at risk. I look back and hope I haven't caused them discomfort or pressure. I am not this way when I'm not manic though.
I apologized to a friend today who I felt I made feel that way, and I was happily surprised he said, "no judgments," and moved on to the next subject and showed he was still there for me. Same with my best friend today. She told me that I worry too much, and she is right.
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Originally Posted by JustJace2u
It is hard sometimes for me to figure out who my true friends are. Sometimes I think people just say things that they think I want to hear. I'm constantly apologizing to people for my behavior and most of them just seem to brush it off.
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Same here. (((hugs))). I think I also get a little more suspicious when I'm rapidly cycling, not to dismiss that it is totally a valid concern to worry about who your true friends are. I apologize a lot, and most people just tell me to chill out....but I need that constant reassurance once I come out mania.