Thank you. I feel ashamed about these thoughts. My therapy ended a few years ago as we both felt that it was no longer beneficial, which I was in agreement with. Not that the therapy hadn't been working but I felt more able to get by and deal with things and just recently I have slipped back too far for my own liking. I've had a few slips but got out of them relatively quickly. I'm not sure if this one has been building up for a while, I am stressed out a bit more this time. I thought about going back to my therapist but I think, though I haven't checked, she is probably away back to her homeland for Christmas which she does every year for up to about 6 weeks. She lives and works in Scotland but originally from New Zealand, the exact opposite side of the world from me. I always wondered why she lived here but never asked her. If I don't feel I am getting better or am getting worse in a couple of weeks then I will try to contact her.