Understand. I've been there. I ran out of atypicals last year (have a few I can't afford but they would need to be in combination with another AP) and I've had big problems on typicals so I wound up on clozaril which works great but is side-effecty and requires a lot of labs. In fact I've got 2 more and then I finally get to go to monthly labs which is so exciting! My cholesterol came way down after I came off high-dose Seroqeul last year; that wasn't why we stopped but it was a nice benefit.