There were some nights that were so bad that the only way I could make it was to think, "if it's this bad in the morning..." Come morning things were different, not necessarily better or worse, just different and that was enough to try another day. I feel the same way you do, nothing works. I've run out of things to try. I've been though CBT twice. No one knows why I know the skills but I'm unable to use them. I'm going to repeat the program on my own. I might be in a better place to practice now. My doctor wants me to join a support group. The depression and anxiety triggered agoraphobia. My world has become very small. Perhaps I'll have more success if I focus on this one specific problem. I must say my timing is impeccable. Resolving to go out more in the middle of a winter snow storm!