Trashy novel, thanks for reminding me! I have one to take to a friend this morning.

The problem is, you're invested in T and here, in us at PC, and you though technically you "could" walk away, it wouldn't be painless and easy like your fantasy. So the reality of your fantasy is incorrect and you might as well come up with a fantasy that works (you work hard and enjoy T and here and gradually get betterer and betterer and we all see and are proud of you and ask your advice on how you did it, etc.) There will be other "Thanksgivings" but there will never be another you (corny song playing in the background).