Currently I'm studying at an art school, which is great since art is my passion. But i have two main problem, I'm not confident of my art and I'm sort of a perfectionist.

Every time I think of something I always seem to deny it and think of it as ugly, and I'm afraid of people with higher skill and ability to criticize my art. It's easy for me to feel discouraged by my own expectations and thinking.

In a group I'm usually open for suggestions, but it's rather hard for me to be the one suggesting something, I'm never confident about my own ability and art, and I'm afraid of other people judging the things I feel good about. Usually I'd just keep silent and be a good listener. At the end I never really think of anything about me being 'good', it's either 'so-so' or 'damn ugly'.

This kind of thinking also effects my leadership ability, lots of people think I have qualities in my self, but it fails to show because of this negative thinking I've been fighting for years.

Do you have suggestions or maybe tips for me to solve this problem? It would be a huge help for my studies and career in the future.