Maybe i can make an analogy and you csn tell me if it sounds fitting.

In basketball i naturally shoot layips with my right hand. Left handed shooting is unnatural to me. I wanted to learn it though. It took a lot of practice but eventually i got to be able to do it pretty well.

Right it sounds like perhaps you really do not want to learn to "to use your nondominant hand", to socialise, as you find it fake. I guess my only point then is that if/when you wanted to, if/when you are ready, i nelieve that you could socialise better, and in yome cpme to feel better about it, through practice.