I think a lot of us can relate to you at least on some level, I know I can. I was hospitalized at the end of November for having severe SIs with a plan. After being discharged I thought I was doing better and learning to cope, but I can feel myself slipping back into that trap with the little voices in my head trying to tell me I'm no good and I'm a failure. There is no way I'm going back to the hospital, especially this soon after being discharged. Needless to say, I'm sitting in the parking lot at my pdocs office waiting go in and see him. Thankfully I was able to get an emergency appointment scheduled with him for today, vs having to wait until my next scheduled appointment on the 23rd. I'm going to do whatever I can to try and nip this in the bud before it's too late.

Hang in there. Sending lots of hugs your way