Saying that when you want to be sociable to someone struggles to be sociable for many reasons and at many levels isn't exactly helpful. Why do you think I wrote my feelings and thoughts? From post one I asked if anyone has had the same experience and view of relationships, and if they succeeded to change that. From your first response, you missed the point and immediately jumped to superficial social skills, while the core issue is my view. So, the problem isn't I don't want to learn to use my left hand, but I have an issue with the game itself and its hidden rules. It's silly for others, I know. My view doesn't help me or motivates me to learn social skills. I don't tell, say, depressed people if you want to get better, then I believe you will find a way to get better. Obviously, there is something deeper that makes people paralyzed mentally, and not living their lives.