So, I met with my pdoc today on an emergency basis because I've started feeling as if I'm headed down the path of feeling suicidal again. Thankfully this time I was more aware and was able to be more proactive in trying to nip it in the bud so to speak. I told myself I'll be damned if I'm going back to the hospital again, especially so soon after my last discharge. Thankfully my pdoc is awesome and without hesitation the first thing he said was, 'don't worry, I'm not sending you to the hospital'. I love doctors who will take time to listen and work with their patients to find the best solution.