I found an online free philosophy class at MIT. It's on philosophy, conciousness and the existence of God. I've finished the first lecture and video. It is thought provoking. It's not so much about finding the answers but exploring who I am with critical thinking. I am also looking for a job and have joined a gym and quit AA. I feel free to explore and change my life-re-create myself. Anyone else trying anything new? I may travel to France next month.