Thanks for all the contributions. Despite how it feels, at least depression isn't alone. You get it. You understand. And that makes it a little more bearable.

Struggling with guilt myself these days. Or, people trying to impose guilt. But I refuse to succumb to it. I've been down that road. I won't ever apologize for being me--- the good and the bad.

I would rather feel 100x stronger than the "average" person than be numb and senseless.