I'm glad you're here, though I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I personally don't know combat, but I know the other side of things. I know what it's like to not be able to sleep and personally I can't make it long in a crowd. I've heard so many times over about VA inefficiency (to put it lightly). I wish I knew a "civilian" combat veteran in your area that could help. I just happen to be lucky where I am. Though, I'm not a veteran, I was recommended to be treated by one. You could google and see if there's one in your area, I don't know how VA stuff works or if that's allowed, but it might be something worth looking into.