(((Hugs))). I'm sorry you have the crash afterwards. Stress has sent me into the abyss on so many occasions. It's always after the event so when doctors ask if anything is bothering me I say no, and believe I'm being truthful because nothing that happened is on my mind. It's only in hindsight that my family and I see that something seriously stressful happened not long before.

I think so much of what I'm dealing with is PTSD related and my new therapist agrees. I'm dealing with a great deal of pain over this realization because I've spent so many years denying the impact that my abusers had on me. Now I realize they damaged me in such a deep way and how much impact their actions have on me and my family. I'm disgusted.....I'm angry at myself for giving them this power....but it's not my conscious mind doing it.....how do I fight against it?