Bluesguy…

The good people of this forum just about covered all the bases. Yet most alcoholics will not believe what they have said applies to them. We use every tool at our disposal to convince ourselves that we are in control, not alcohol.

Here is an experiment you might want to try…

What is your favorite drink? The one you like above all others? Take that drink and make up a bunch of it. Maybe 20-25 drinks worth.

Now sit down one evening and drink two of them. That’s it! Just two! No more. Put the plug in the jug and don’t touch another drop of alcohol in any form for the rest of the evening.

Leave the jug setting in plain sight, just don’t touch it.

The next day do it all over again. Just two stiff shots of your favorite, then nothing for the rest of the evening.

Do this experiment each and every evening (just two drinks) until the jug is empty. If you can do that, you may be OK.

I would have found that experiment very difficult to do when I was still drinking. In fact, I would have gotten angry if someone suggested it to me. That sort of thing is NO FUN for an alcoholic like myself.

After a drink or two, the phenomenon of craving sets in, and we REALLY, REALLY want to drink more. I could tough it out maybe a day or two, but to go 2 weeks tormenting myself that way? I wouldn’t have made it. After day two, I would have drank the lot.

But that’s just me.

It’s not about how much we drank, or how often we drank, or how long we drank, or where we drank, or how old we are, it is about what happens to us when we do drink. It has been my experience that a real alcoholic like myself can’t or won’t do this experiment successfully.

Richard