sorry for the double post, just wanted to mention how I think its amusing that you grow up healthy, not understanding the causes and motivations behind an unhealthy relationship and the lines are blurred between what is good and what is bad when you read people doing the same thing for the wrong reasons.

somethign I noticed you said was being in love with blah blah blah, whatever he provided you with, actually yes, before mature love creates emotions associated with true love, people DO "fall in love" with what is being given to them, however you still "love" him along with that. When people say they "fall in love" they are saying "they enjoy the anticipation and experience of constant praise and acceptance" it can be similar to how people would say "i love chocolate" they don't "love" chocolate, do they want the best for the chocolate in the chocolates life endevours.... i think not, what they are saying is "I enjoy what the chocolate gives me". some people like to call it infatuation =p not a bad thing, it can feel good, but if there's nothing behind it then yeah, won't be so good later on ^_^