Maybe it's not you but them. It doesn't seem to me that people these days know what loyalty is. On the other hand it's hared for people to deal with people with mental illness. The ups and downs of our illness reeks havoc with relationships. I'm lucky my husband is strong enough to put up with my mood swings and not take them personally but most people can't handle it.

I'm sorry you are having trouble with stable relationships. It's part of the illness.