I don't know how to draw the line of whether it was abuse as such, with me and my father. We never bonded properly from the beginning (he wasn't around much when i was really little). Then throughout my life all i really remember of him is him being angry, at me, my sister or anyone.

I didn't have many friends as a child. I never seemed to be able to communicate well, my mum says I was always different from other kids. I have now been diagnosed with borderline personality, so I guess maybe signs of that were present from a young age.

I wouldn't say I had a bad childhood, it could have been far far worse. But I guess it wasn't a particularly happy one, I always hated myself, from a young age.