Thank you for answering.

That's where you need to begin,that's what you need to focus on.Screw everything else for awhile,let everything else go and focus on that.

What do you need to do in order to make that happen?
Do you need therapy?Alanon?What exactly do you need to do in order to accomplish that?Think about yourself and what you need to do,don't take into consideration what he would think or feel or say,what others would think,etc.Only focus on that one goal for now,focus on what YOU need to do.

And then begin working on it.