What was the most merciful thing that could've happened during the trauma?

Which one?

Any of them.

Like the really bad ones?

Sure.

They could've finished the job.

What do you mean by that?

They could've shown the mercy of not forcing me to live this way for years. Shown me the mercy of not knowing what it's like to be that scared. The mercy of killing me before I understood what happened.
But this world doesn't have mercy. Just more pain sprinkled on top of misery drenched in fear.

Why do you say that?

Does it matter why? I said it and I meant it. I wish they would've killed me so I didn't have to do it myself.

(This probably should've been posted on a different forum but it ended up here, for some reason.)