I get anxious and panicky when I try to explain something to another person especially regarding my dep. I used to get horrible anxiety attacks when I went grocery shopping. Still do occasionally. I finally figured out after digging into the recesses of my mind, the anxiety was due to writing checks and unable to always have the funds to cover grocery shopping for me and the kids. I would feel like the cashier might not be able to cash my check and all the food we had in our basket would be returned. It still makes me sad and cry. (And I worked full time. ) I have recently begun to wonder if all my years of struggling and trying to always get by with my children and then being a broke young widow ,has crept up on me and broadsided my a*s...lol...