I am ruminating again and it's bringing me down really fast.

I knew I was wrong when I picked it up in my hands at the store. A beautiful journal. I knew I shouldn't have bought. I knew I would againfall into the trap....

In several days I have scrawlled out more than 50 pages. This journal is huge incidentally, each page is 8X10 and I write very tiny. I have been up at 530am and written until 10pm. And it is not pleasant stuff. negative Negative NEGATIVE. This is so depressing this being fixated on just a few things. This ruminating is not healthy.

Now I should point out I was not in a negative mood when I got the journal. I knew it would go there though. Given anything to write on and the negativity just falls out... (this site is case in point).

I'm wondering if others have similar habits that cause emotions to spiral down.