"Cut off my wings and come lock me up
Just pull the plug yeah, I've had enough
Tear me to pieces, sell me for parts
You're all vampires so here

You can have my heart...

The walls are a funeral, I run with ghosts
No hint of movement, no sign of pulse
Only an echo, just skin and bone
They kick the chair but we, we help tie the rope

You can have my heart..."

This how I've been feeling manifested in a song I just heard today. I put a trigger icon because I won't lie here, I'm dealing with a heavy amount of SI. Thing is, these next lyrics to the same song also describes a lot about me.

"You must of made some kind of mistake
I asked for death, but instead I'm awake
The devil told me no room for cheats
I thought I sold my soul, but he kept the receipt...

So leave the lights on I’m coming home
It's getting darker but I carry on
The sun won't shine here, it never did
And when it rains, it ****ing pours
But I think I like it"

- Bring Me The Horizon, 'Doomed'.