I can see that about getting pregnant when mentally unstable, on many levels. Thinking maybe bringing something new in would bring happiness around you. I had to snicker when you mentioned getting fixed I have pets and they are all "fixed", so I had this image of you walking into the vets office.

Yes, I would think that 4 kids would be plenty to have to deal with. The way the world is right now that would drive me crazy trying to keep four kids safe and happy. You really need some type of award for that