I kind of feel like I'm breaking down today. My psych nurse hasnt gotten back to me, and I have left multiple messages about needing medication tomorrow. I'm sure she is busy. I wish I wasn't mentally ill. Sometimes I feel like a different, lower less than kind of person. I don't know why. I'm sick of it. I don't want to see myself this way! These past few days have sucked. Emotionally. What is wrong with me, I don't know. I want to be acknowledged and seen and I feel guilty for this.

Update / edit: I'm going to be ok. I just needed to get this out!