Honestly, after dealing with the last therapist before the one I have now, I really didn't feel like I could go see another one. That woman really betrayed my trust and was also not qualified enough to handle me, let alone help. At the end of her sessions I always felt as though I'd become more suicidal than when I went in. In fact, not a little over a month seeing her, I ended up in the hospital because I "attempted" (I think the nurse was over exaggerating, along with my counselor there, but I'm also really numbed out in regards to my past). I didn't go back to therapy for a long time, until I was recommended my current T by a friend who'd gone through similar issues.

I'm not saying this to invalidate your fear. To be honest, I don't have an answer as how to help your situation. So many people use therapy and such, but there are alternative medicines. Here in my state, I actually find myself more attached to Navajo methods to deal with and handle my depression. Thing is, it turns out that there's a lot more wrong with me other than that, so I can't only rely on cleansings, that and they cost a bit. I'm not sure how open you are to that sort of thing. I'm not sure I've ever asked.