cool question fuzzy and something i'm working on right now... the whole mom/son thing because mom's handicapped, but she still can do some things... like cook, make a small loan at times, reach the scratch i can't...

i had to prove to myself i could be independant... when i knew that for certain i returned to care for my mom with day to day work her handicap prevents her from doing... it needs to be done... i mean, just taking the trash out is a monumental task for her... ice, snow, wind... her nightmare is having to drive somewhere in moderate weather.. it requires fierce physical endurance to keep her balance...

i run to the liqour store for her... she's drinking a lot less... i talk to her about PC and healing... i see her everyday... but i don't believe i'm co-dependant... she just needs me...

i resisted moving in with her... heard far too many "still lives with his mother stabs"... but it is just reality... it is the best i can do for her by living there... she's cool... gives me all my space, respects and loves me... still trys to mother me at times... i try to pause before i answer... not say the first thing that comes out of my mouth (do you think i'm still 15?)... she needs to do it... and at times i still need her...

co-dependant?... i just think it's the it works best... sometimes i wonder what else i'd be doing if not for her... maybe nothing good... maybe something good... i just don't know right now because this is where its at.... right now...