Your lamictal dose is low 200mg is average.I'm surprised your not on depokote as it's for migraines and bp. Most of us are on several medications for different symptoms. Not all BP'ers try to commit suicide. I have never and my husband hasn't since he was a teen. It sounds like bipolar to me with a mix of migraine and other stuff. Maybe taking your meds at "night" will help you be in a better mood when you wake. If you can I suggest getting an opinion from a nerophsychiatrist.