Thanks LIW. I'm sorry to hear about your circumstances.

My behaviour was more about the condition being out of control and untreated so I would stay out all night, drink and gamble excessively, spend an inordinate amount of money, be irritable and completely divorced from feeling and then masses of depression.

I basically walked out of one relationship and the other left me.

The one I walked out of is the one I feel most shame about.