I feel the same way, that I don't belong, though I suspect you might say I have something. Still, I feel any or all of it could disappear at any moment because that is what has happened before.

I'm not very social, either, and without large families and communities that we were born into and are still a part of, in today's world it's just incredibly difficult for people like us. I have found PC to be helpful, a sense of community of sorts. And that's helped me, along with grit and determination, to join some in-person interest groups I found online.

Do you have any particular interests or hobbies? Anything at all, there are probably some other people interested in the same thing. I live in a city so there are some groups that meet in-person even though I found them online. And there's a sense of belonging because of the common interest and I've gotten to be friendly with several people in them. A start.

But I keep coming back to PC because I do find other people here that I feel I have something in common with. Like you.