Thank you SO much for the kind words! I really needed to hear it.
Everything about him lately screams narcisst.. he lies to me non stop and it's draining. I just want him to go back to the way he was 2+ years ago. He has become a different person completely and it hurts because we have children!!

I go from feeling hurt and angry at him while hes ignoring me. I try to sit down with him and discuss and he just refuses. Says we don't need to talk, when I tell him im unhappy he shakes his head and leaves the room. This can last for days and then suddenly hes back to 'normal'. Apologizes, wants to spend time with me, have sex, hold hands and just back to how we used to be.. i begin to think maybe my hormones got me angry at him, maybe i really am sensitive and just need to relax a little! Hes not so bad afterall.. then after a day or 2 hes angry again and it leaves me wondering what the hell just happened.

I think il feel better eventually being alone without him. Less resentment and try to build my self esteem back up. It just hurts that my experiences are then minimized by my family.. it makes my self doubt pile up which makes leaving even harder.