I think my hypo is coming to and end or already did. After two months of barely sleeping and wild new ideas for my life, lots of social contacts etc. I could feel it fading away within the last days.

I got more and more anxious and I feel horribly about the way I am leading my life. I am doing well at work because noone seems to notice my struggle inside. But I don't accomplish any of the things I want to.

I want to be quiet and responsible but instead I go out to drink and smoke. I quit sports. I am in a constant panic mode. I feel love sick. What is the sense to all of this?

I feel I am completely out of control. I am sick of being an adult. I just want to curl up in bed until it's all over but I have things to get done. I don't want to feel this way anymore and I think I am handling my life in a very bad way and I see no escape. I feel like a complete failure.