I agree with what the others have said. Would you be able to find an outside resource for when you leave the hospital? A support group of some sort so you can make friends who share similar issues? There are churches that have groups and other community resources. Reach out to your medical professionals for ideas if you need some. Please know that you are not alone in this world. There are many of us who feel alone and rejected, and the best way to fight this is to find others who want friends and support as much as you do. Reach out. We are here!