This sounds reasonable enough to me. It's just that I remember myself a few years ago with classic BP episodes and now it's just so hard to see myself that way, like it couldn't have or didn't happen. But I agree that I should be proactive (take meds, go to pdoc appointments, and write down whenever I feel like I'm going into an episode -which I used to do- and be ready for anything that might happen). Knock on wood, I'll stay in remission for a good long while yet. It scares me. A lot. That I'm just a really stressful time away from an episode. Like I said, I try and control stress, but sometimes life throws things your way and there's just nothing you can do about it but handle it as best you can. I can always increase the dose of Seroquel, I have plenty, in case I feel something awful happening... This disease is so scary, and I've been longing to believe that I just don't have it anymore, because I don't want to believe that I could go through an episode again. Scary-scary.