What notz said. Plus, I look at the times I've gone back out drinking as "hitting bottom." The first time I tried to quit was to please a girlfriend who was sick of my drinking (not a "very deep bottom" in the grand scheme of things). The last time was when I lost the best job I'd ever had (a "very low bottom"). For me, the bottoms keep getting deeper & deeper. If I decide to go back out again, who knows what the next bottom will be? Maybe getting killed in a car wreck, or due to a mix-up with my meds. There's no coming back from those bottoms. Maybe looking at things like that will help you stop?