I miss who I was back before everything went south. I remember being hungry for knowledge and how ambitious I was then. I wanted to learn everything and it was fun to learn. I floated around in this sea of possibility. Now I struggle with everything. And doing anything feel like it is almost impossible. My mind feels like it is working in slow motion and things don’t come as easy. I have to fight for every scrap of information. Remembering the things I studied is hard and I easily forget names and numbers that I could remember with ease. I miss being me. I miss it as much as I miss someone who I have lost. It is like I died and I’m just a corpse that is masquerading as a living person who only superficially looks like me.