my appreciation of you all is beyond only words......

For some reason, this week I feel different and my pdoc said the same. She thinks I am actually getting to know ME. For the first time in 43 years....I am becoming more assertive with my husband and in return he is changing too, he keeps sending me such lovely little notes, e.mails. He wrote " you have been through so much %#@&#! in your life, but %#@&#! helps things to grow and you have grown into a lovely person" well, I cried.....and gave him a big hug and sent him an e.mail back (he has a different account to me)telling him I loved him and a big red heart.
We used to do this all the time, it's like something happened and I dont know what, maybe it's just me healing and getting stronger.....We seem to be functioning so much better as a family for saying I wanted to leave so bad last week. How fickle I am lol.

anyway, I just want to thank you for being here and putting up with me and my paranoid ways and moaning and groaning all the time...

love you all, Jin xxxxxx