Been doing really well generally. The mild depression after the mania has lifted and my mood is stable...but I am full of rage. Saw my T yesterday and he saw me for an hour and twenty minutes as I was so worked up. My pdoc screwing me over has triggered my PTSD from so many others in my past abusing me and messing with me while 'helping' me. I'm the last few days I just lost it and the anger is immense. Thankfully my T was able to calm me down and give me coping skills.

Next Wed my parents and I are seeing my pdoc so he can explain why he has ditched me over religion and fear of suicide. I think he arranged the meeting to try and cover his arse as he has involved my patients in my treatment before and they are now angry at what he has done to me. I just want to find out who he's referring me to and move on. I am looking forward to seeing a new doctor.