Its not about deserving or not deserving...

I guess if i tried to kill myself and ended up in the hospital, he would say, see, i told you im not the best therapist for you.

Im going to lose my mind. If you wanted to get rid of someone, i suppose this would be the easiest way. But how could he care so little about me? I dont see how you could care for someone and at the same time, knowingly cause so much harm.

I guess because he got to know me and realized im not worth his helping me?