He is sort of the last straw though. What if you had someone to support you the way you need it? Maybe that would make all of the difference to keep going.

I don't mean to make light of your personal situation. Before I moved to Texas I was losing my job and I have a lot of debt. I was terrified of living out of my car potentially. It is scary to have a lack of supports. My ca t helped me through many out of state job interviews that required an interview project and lots of legwork. Sometimes small kindnesses can tip the balance. I wish we could do more here on PC. If there is anything maybe ask for input here? I'll have to think some more on it. Hugs.