I am so sorry you're in such a dark place right now. I wish I had some words of wisdom that would ease your pain and give you hope again. But I don't. Ive been where you are and it sucks.

Sometimes you can't stay strong for yourself. Ok I get that. Then stay strong for others, like you've been doing--for just a little longer. Just until you can stay strong for yourself.

For what it's worth, I'm sending you thoughts of comfort and healing and peace in the hopes that tomorrow may be just the tiniest bit better. And if you need to rant, rant away. I'm listening