Skies, I am so sorry you are going through this.

You are so very triggered right now because of what t has said and done. I can sense a flat hopelessness coming through in your responses and words. It seems that this place that you are in is connecting with a ton of past experiences of hopelessness... so that all that exists for you right now is this pervasive pain and ever-present lack of hope.
Can you call on some of the others to help you through this?