I can't be sure but I really think she could. I think when I got cancer over two years ago, it scared her really bad. I've almost died a few times in my life but that was one time I couldn't hide it from her. She had to take care of me for a while. Tend to me after my surgeries, find something I could actually take in when I was going through radiation. Had to pick me up off the floor when I'd pass out. I don't think any of that was easy on her. Her eighteen year old was sick and told that they wouldn't survive long without treatment; that and her kid didn't want to do anything about it, initially. It was the first time that my depression was brought to her attention. She had to really help me out of that, too. My mom and I got real close when I was almost eighteen, but before that it wasn't stable and it could be explosive at times. Then a few months after we rebuilt our relationship, I get sick. She took care of me; and we got even closer.

I mean, she's my mom. I love my mom. She was the only one who tried to protect me from my dad and consoled me when he'd tear me down and make me feel like I was less than dirt. Every since we got past our crap, she's always been there to build me up. I'm actually tearing up because I'm that scared I'll lose her.