No. I'm trying NOT to self-diag or use specific terminology, as some people seem to get offended, and I seem really good at offending people like this.

This will be my first time to see any mental health care provider.

My thoughts are darn near speed limit breaking out of control; but I made a promise, and I am going to keep that promise.

I have no idea how I'm going to handle this hour long appointment. Just the idea of hopping in my truck in a few hours gives me the shakes.

They literally found me an hour long slot with a psych in a big clinic in less than 24 hours. I'm hoping that was just coincidence, but I didn't exactly manage to mute the chaos on the screening phone call....