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Jan 12, 2017, 09:37 AM
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Member Since: Feb 2012
Location: From Egypt, journeying in America
Posts: 244
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Thank you so much Hobbit House, Takeshi, ABC, Mr. Stranger, & Ravdeep Singh for your so beautiful responses 
Maybe I chose a very simplistic childish phrase by saying "I wanna change the world"  What I really mean, is that before I die, I want to leave out something so significant, that many aspects in how the human world right now is going through change... I don't want to live an ordinary life, just go to work, do some voluntary stuff maybe, watch TV, retire, go travel some places for pleasure, die! I don't want such a life, & I think the main reason why the world with its living species are moving toward extinction now, is because most of the people choose to live such a life, & not change themselves & change the world around them! I don't blame the people much, I blame more the socio-political-economic-cultural global system that we live in, that "educate" the child in school, to pursue "happyness - like in the movie", money, financial & social "success", so the system would just go on like it is, & the business CEOs (like the ones you mention Takeshi for ETS), governments' politicians, military industries would keep amassing more & more wealth for themselves!
That's why I don't wanna just go to Iraq & Syria doing some ordinary voluntary work with international organizations! So what?! What will change?! Are the children there saved?!  I want to do research with a group of children suffering from the extreme violence there, to teach them about the Universe evolution story, without any cultural or religious direction, & record their reactions, expressions, reflections, maybe what I write, will somehow inspire many people around the world, by the power of the innocence of children...
I sadly have to find a way through the system first That's why I'm applying for research programs abroad, & I need to take the TOEFL! The program I'm applying for ABC, specifically mentions that they don't accept IELTS 
I no longer care about my health much, I don't have the luxury & money to afford it anyway! With the deteriorating economic conditions in Egypt after we failed in our attempt to make a revolution, I can barely even afford my food & rent! Going to a psychotherapist is a luxury now!
Besides, I got cancer last year (& thankfully survived it!  ), so I have an urge in me, that I have to do something, to change something (at least try!) in the world before cancer comes back...
And to tell you the truth Ravdeep Singh, in my opinion, I think most of the people who have affected people & the world with their works, didn't have healthy minds. I don't know exactly how we should define "healthy" & "non-healthy" minds, but I think people who suffer from problems in their lives, especially mental problems, which I prefer to name "mental disconformities", because such people's minds refuse to conform with the dominating non-healthy indoctrinating industrializing materialistic religious standards of our present human civilization, are the most apt to be driven to change those standards, & the world around them 
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Check my consciousness: toward the Cosmic Purpose
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