I know how hard it can be to not only be dealing with depression but feeling like you have no one to talk to and no one who understands. But we understand. I understand. I hate when people tell me how I should be feeling. Ask me to take just one more med or see one more therapist. When I try to tell them it's not working, it's me who they blame. They tell me I'm not trying hard enough. But as we know, just getting through each and every day is a feat. Just surviving is a true accomplishment.

I don't have any miracle answer for you but I will say that becoming an adult and being able to make my own decisions made it bearable. I spent the last two years of adolescence essentially locked in my room. It was a dark time. But I look at what I've accomplished since then-- holding on, and it is different. I still deal with the frustration of feeling alone but at least I am my own keeper. I make my own decisions. I control my own destiny. That has helped me.

I wish you luck and strength. And please know you're not alone. You have us here. And we will always listen.