I seem to learn things and then regress and then learn more, so it is not a process of continuous improvement. I understand more about emotional processes and why people, such as my mother, and especially myself, have reacted -- how we made serious mistakes and yet are not necessarily to be condemned for that. I have come to rely more on my own judgement, finding that others, even mental health professionals, are not always to be relied upon. I see the mechanisms of emotional dysfunction taking place in other people, even those in "high" positions. I see such dysfunction within myself, and am slowly able to correct that. Insight. Exploring mindfulness -- that is, being aware of my own thoughts, feelings, and mental processes, even when they are daunting, has been the most valuable for me.