There is a position at work that just posted that I have been waiting for them to finish creating and post for over a year. This is only my second week back from short term disability, and I am struggling to get up to speed with the work I have to do. I really want to apply for this job, but I feel like if I can barely get through the day with work that I should be doing faster than what I am doing now, how am I going to be able to accept and learn a new job (assuming I get it) when I can barely focus now. My mind wanders off so much during the day that there are some days that I end up staying later than my scheduled hours to keep up.
I'm just so tired all of the time. I drink caffeine which helps but then poops out on me. I don't want to keep drinking more and more, I already have enough junk in my system. And because I'm so tired all of the time, I tend to eat a lot of junk food.

I'm just really upset because this job is finally available when my headspace isn't in the right place for me to want to try.