I'm sorry you're having a tough time. Sending good vibes your way.
I usually feel compelled to email my T post session to muse about session. We came to an agreemet that she'll acknowledge my email, but won't respond at length. She will respond more in depth when I'm teetering on the edge of crisis.
Maybe it would help if you both can agree on something like that-she acknowledges your email, and you adjust your expectations (adjusts sounds like a terrible word), does this make sense?